Caste system in India….

August 3, 2018

Well my experience with caste system and marriage. Well brahmins here come in the forward caste and even the Reddys do. My parents have had an intercaste marriage and this has created a problem for my marriage. My mother is from the society labelled forward caste and my father is from a backward caste. I dont feel it is a problem for me because I don’t have any strong intention to get married (but I am worried how do I have sex because in India that is the only means to atleast in middle class,well behaved families as people say) and I feel life is less complicated not marrying. But there is some minor percent of interest to get married. I have registered on and most of the girls and their parents have mentioned that they want a guy from only a specific caste they are crystal clear and very stringent regarding these requirements. They clearly deny when I approach a girl from a forward caste. I found very few liberal people on the website who put caste is not specific for them. But a majority of the members want a guy only from a specific caste, they would not marry a guy like me from a backward caste. Well also a majority of the girls from the forward caste look good and those from a backward caste dont. I am from backward caste I dont look that great. There are examples where people from a backward caste also look good but people from a backward caste also look bad but the majority classification is this.

Now coming to caste system as to how it evolved in India. People in the past (from the time of the kinds) were divided into different castes depending on the profession they chose. Now people in inferior professions were labelled into inferior castes. Some how the people looking dark (here in India there is no african or the american race but people are there with dark skin and with fairer skin) were looked down,socially also there was a distinction and then were given inferior professions. Also genetically people who are dark were also not great to look at, this created the divide even more and were looked down. Then they fell into inferior professions. Now people who looked fair and beautiful occupied the higher positions in the society calling.  This carried forward till now and people from forward castes look good (genetically better in beauty and brains-more about the later, I am not speaking of the odd examples but the majority observation) and people from backward, scheduled castes/tribes looked ugly. So I cant seem to find a good looking girl with a good job rather a girl from a forward caste (I also agree that love doesnt see these specifics in many cases). Some people would say it has got to do with the genetics of the body or a particular race, ok then to those people I would say why not invent a genetic medicine which would reduce the effect of melanin in the skin, make people beautiful and genetically intelligent. But as per my experience it is just not genetics but pathogenic. The pathogenic reason of looking ugly probably holds an equal or a greater share as to why people look ugly. In my case when the bacterial overload in my body increased I looked dark skinned, ugly, fat (over a period of time I gained weight because the metabolism fell down and because of the TB was infecting my intestines), ability to work well reduced (was not productive mentally and physically). The bacterial and fungal infections make skin look dark and if the advent of this infections is there for a long period of time then even the person would not look fit but ugly.

I very much think the ability to be intelligent, work well, look good has a pathogenic reason rather than just being genetics. So the caste system in India is due to the long term effect of pathogens on the body in a group of population, especially having to do with its effect on immunity which left the body more vulnerable to diseases that it effected the above factors (intelligence, ability to work well,look good which has social and socio economic consequences) in the society and created the divide. Everything has a medical reasoning behind it. So one day when we have genetic and effective antibiotics (well first diagnostics-more about that later) that there is zero negative effect of pathogens on the body then there would be no racial discrimination, no caste system like we have in our country and every body would be happy and love (both physical and mental) would prosper.

Disclaimer: The intention of my writings is not to hurt any one’s feelings but just presenting my observations which I had been a pressing issue in my brain when I began observing these since childhood. I dont not want to compete or argue in a bad way with anyone on this but I feel there are strong correlations in my findings.


Medical Intervention…

August 3, 2018

Medical intervention runs all around the world..and I get a feeling that people are working towards hiding the truth. For example when I went to Los Angeles in 2010 for SIGGRAPH LA conference there was a checklist of questions I was asked to answer before I would exit the plane. One of the questions was “Do you have TuberCulosis..”. Well according to some reports more than a million people in the world have dormant TB, meaning that TB does get detected in their blood stream through serological tests but it does not cause the disease TB. So when I am asked this question (which clearly shows is medical intervention) should I say yes or no. Because when I was on anti tubercular trials the effect of my infection increase even after taking tablets for a month but then it gradually decreased. Though the intensity of the symptoms that I had when I was seriously sick with TB was high I still have the same gastric problem, the discomfort in my intestines (I can feel that the wall of my intestines has some sort of pain, some times numbness, inflammation and even acute pain that you get some one pricks you with needle, I feel the micro-blood vessels some times get obstructed for some time and then it clears away). Even I get this lumpy feeling in my abdomen which also adds to constipation and severe discomfort when I sit. This lumpy obstruction goes away when blood flow improves (blood flow improved in the abdomen when I took tadalafil as medicine for erectile dysfunction), or when I work out a lot (like cardio for an hour) or even when I took anti biotics. But there is a significant comfort as if the obstructed feeling (in my lower abdomen around the navel) goes down when I take tadalafil, how ever it never solved my erectile dysfunction that even if I see porn I dont get erection (I know I am straight like I was in teenage). This I definitely feel is linked with TB (though not at a disease level) but it can spread slowly in the body over the years and cause damage. TB popularly know to infect the lungs causing pulmonary TB can also occur in any part of the body like I had/have it in my intestines and urinary track. I think many people in India have these symptoms because just their skin color, swelling in face, problems with erectile dysfunction in males, problem with the integrity of the abdominal wall that it just bulges out like a pot belly, even people getting fat after marriage and loss of skin color etc could also be linked to this TB as per my own personal experience. (Well doctors would straight away deny this observation). I also think the limited life period of humans on earth right now is clearly linked to the effect of pathogens on the body that we age out and die with an average life expectancy of 75 years or so. There has been documented evidence that people in the past were (also during the time of cave men) having a shorter span of life time and now since the medical facilities and knowledge have increased the life expectancy has also increased. But I seriously feel as per my observations and mostly with the experience with the disease TB does reduce quality of life and also reduces life expectancy. So in the future if we have to increase life expectancy to may be say 200-300 years then we will have to eliminate TB totally from the planets environment and atmosphere. One way to do this is to spray Rifampin in the air till the skies have a reddish tinge and to prevent intake into healthy individuals people would have to wear masks. Although such a similar thing would have to be done to the entire planet for all the pathogens which can spread through air but TB is the most prevalent one. There appears to be medical intervention to deny the effect of TB here in the diseased population,that the doctors would bluntly deny this and yes governments of the world are taking care like I had my experience with the US to prevent the spread of TB in their healthy population. Intervention would go to any extent, in ways unimaginable as per my experience.

Note: The reader might agree or may not now. I dont have any conflict with them but these are my observations true by my suffering and experience.

Why do I keep changing colour since childhood?

August 1, 2018

When I had TB and other infections my skin became dark and I had dark spots on my face (observe my photo in 2012, top left corner of the collage). I was fair and pink skinned in 2010. I am wheatish now in 2018. There is another pic in the bottom of the collage which shows me and my mother. I was born brown/darkish but my brother was born white (white doesnt mean he is from America and dark doesnt mean that I am from africa). I kept changing colors like a chameleon through all my life. Coincidentally when my abdomen was sick with this TB and other infections I became dark and then when the infections went away I became brighter. My doctor also said that if the discoloration is due to TB then it cannot be reversed fully, if TB infects a body part then it is permanently effected. So color of skin is not a gift or curse of God but as per my experience and the proof I show in my pics the color of the skin is as per and due to bacterial and fungal infections in the body. My doctor also said that among Indians fungal and bacterial infections are common (then I wondered why is there is a problem with immunity in the Indian population, why people from north are fair and from the south are darker). Some intelligent doctor who if reads this passage would say Oh that is just sun burn, may be you are moving too much in the sun or may be you are having indirect radiation from sunlight if you are at home. Well I have always remained indoors when I was in hostel in IIIT and now at home, I never exposed myself to so much sunlight either direct or indirect, well when Americans wear bikinis with their sexy looking bodies on the beach for hours they don’t turn from looking a white to a black like it happened to me without bathing my body in sun. Melanin concept I feel fails when it comes to bacterial infections effect on skin color. I gained color and became pink when I took B12 injections and anti biotics but again when TB worsened then I lost my color. Well my experience counts here and cannot be just disregarded by a medical expert because when medical knowledge was at its infancy (it still is in many sub fields of medicine) doctors used to inject themselves with the virus/bacteria to know the effects of the pathogen and also to see the effects of the proposed cure (be it a vaccine or a drug) to know if it is working against the pathogen and curing the body. Well my discovery here is that skin color especially in Indian population is due to the effect of innate TB and other pathogens in the body. On another occasion when I asked my doctor why my groin has turned black (very dark) then he said it is due to fungal infection in the groin. Well it has been so since my teenage, I used meds against fungal infections, anti fungal powders but the color in my groin does not improve. I was also born with a dark penis being an Indian (that is another story which will lead to another discovery). Why have I been having recurrent fungal infections in my groin, where has my immunity gone since childhood?


I want to put a simulated conversation here

Some guy with half a brain would say in a sarcastic sense of humour: Arey mama neeku AIDS? (Dialogue in Telugu, English translation- I think you have AIDS)

Me: I think I was born with AIDS and I am out of my mind to have agreed and said so now.


Ok, if my doctor has said fungal and bacterial infections are common in Indians, then there is some serious problem with immunity since childhood among all Indians, fungal infections as per medical knowledge in the west/developed nation happens onto the body only where there is a serious immunodeficiency. But one thing is sure that fungal infections do effect skin color like TB. There is one more true story to be told about this fungal infection in the groin which is commonly found in Indians. To know once check your groin color(be a girl or a boy or a man or a women – especially south Indians) before a mirror or take a picture of the groin and surrounding area under good light with a good camera just for a diagnostic purpose.

So by telling you this am I creating a mass panic in the population by giving this knowledge or is the truth better to be known rather than hidden,so that one is at peace atleast after several tens of years of suffering and one day one dies.

One more truth: My doctor said the life threatening TB bacteria is found commonly in the air, any one can get it?

I also have an observation about caste system in India, reservations due to cast (this is not my primary topic of discussion),how health and pathogens in the body can be linked to prosperity of a nation and the caste system. Stay tuned for my next post (I do not know if anyone is reading this).


Why is this discomfort like TB in the abdomen not going away…

August 1, 2018

When I was diagnosed of TB in my urinary track, I also had severe discomfort in my intestines, the gastric trouble was like hell, the formation of gas would not stop and there would be an irritation on the walls of the intestine on the inside which I could clearly feel. The doctor diagnosed me of TB with an ELISA test in 2011. IgG was high and the test was positive, when I took the Anti tubercular meds the problem on the skin, in the urinary track and the intestines increased but then it subsided but it did not fully go away. The gastric trouble has come down but still is troubling me, my stool also does not form well, I feel obstructed in my abdomen, I got like a TB patch few months ago on my abdomen and it went away. It was a painless numb patch.I feel I am getting numb inside my abdomen, I feel short minute pains in the flesh of my abdomen but consistent minute pain, I keep getting low fevers again and again. If I take multivitamin tablets this discomfort gets a bit low that I dont get fever. If I stop multivitamin for a 3 or more days, I keep getting low fevers, body pains, the gastric trouble becomes high. I have been taking Rabiprezole for my gatric trouble daily for the past 4 years but the day I miss taking it the gastric discomfort increases, this rabiprezol reduces gas in my stomach that I dont get belching again and again, or pain and burning in my chest but it does not prevent gas getting collected in the colon, most of the time in a day I have gas collected in the colon. I dont have proper bowel moments since this IBS started 14 years ago, but bowel movements became normal for a short period of time when I was on anti biotics and including anti tubercular meds. Right now I have a less horrific version of the discomfort in my abdomen when I had TB but the symptomatic discomfort is still there. I shit 4 times a day, once before breakfast, once after breakfast, once after lunch and once after dinner. This particular frequency of passing stools I feel is due to lack of proper bowel movements, only when new food enters the digested food shits out. This problem is there since the TB worsened and has not gone away.

Time travel…

June 26, 2018

One note about time travel. Well one would always like to see how the world would look like 200-300 years from now, what new gadgets would be invented, basically how the canvas of life would be 200-300 years from now and would there be time travel in the future. Well I feel sad that I would not be alive to see all this and that itself is a cause for depression but this remarkable thing about time travel if it gets invented, one need to be alive till time travel is invented. If at any point in time time travel does get invented then it would should be present throughout the entire time, even time before it was invented because it is about traveling through time, it would be present all along the length of time, if you imagine take as a ruler then it would be there even from marking zero and no matter how long the ruler is you could always get there..So time travel is a hope for life beyond the limited period of one being born and one dying. So if one time travels can one say one lives forever? The answer is both yes and no. Because you can move all along all the ruler (the physical instrument to measure length) of time but if you do a scalar sum of the instances/periods you spend when you stopped traveling each time then that would be a limited period. Say I live for 20 years in the years1900-1920, then another 20 years in the years 2300-2320, another 30 in years 3400-3430 and you die in 3430 because your life expectancy with your aging/diseased body is 20+20+30 = 70 years you might say I was alive from the year 1900 till the year 3430 and experience life to see all the inventions, cultural changes etc from 1900 to3430  you dint live for 3430 -1900 = 1530 years but lived for only 70 years. The example was a bit sparse in timing but say you spent 1 hour in each month from 1900 (the year you were born) and after you spend an hour in the current month you immediately time traveled to the next immediate month spent, another hour in the next month and you keep doing till all these one hours add upto 70 years in life then how many years and till what year did you live? Let me calculate that, 70 years x 365 days x 24 hours = 613200 hours is the total time for which you can be alive. And you spend 12 hours a year living that year then it is 6132000/12 = 51,100 years for which you are alive and you die in the year 1900+51,100= 53,000. Now since you experienced life each month continuously in this example it is not as sparse as the previous example and in a way you can say I lived for 51,100 years not just 70 i.e you can outlive your life expectancy with time travel. (If one says oh, I can give you a better example, I am smarter than you, I say I live 1 second each month and time travel to the next month and live another second then I live much longer…but the philosophical question is are you experiencing life in these years, it is the same philosophical difference between a digital and an analog signal, what would be your delta (incremental difference) at which you will approximate a digital signal to a near analog signal…

Are we lonely in this universe…?

June 26, 2018

When I used to look at the sky in the night when I was a kid and even now, especially when I visited the Birla planetarium here in Hyderabad where they would show pictures of the milky way galaxy, I thought all those stars, there must be other people out there in the universe otherwise this universe is too beautiful to just be lonely. Humanity cannot be the only race in this vast beautiful universe. Though there are people on this planet family, friends and relatives I feel lonely..lonely from the stand point that are there no intelligent beings out there in the universe whose civilization and culture we can experience. I do not know if I would be alive till the time our human civilization discovers other intelligent humanoid civilizations in other parts of our galaxy and other galaxies. If I could time travel and live there then I would rather have a girl friend and marry someone from another planet (more advanced beings who withstood the test of time, have the understanding and unity to survive and proliferate as a race together, advanced in science, engineering, technology, gadgets that we have never seen) so that I can experience their culture and technology. (Just trying to be sarcastic) I wonder why always people quote of alien sightings in the fart desert regions like arizona in the US, do aliens only visit US? do they not visit places like India, are there are no people here? Internet is filled with fake alien sightings and UFOs from other developed countries, is India too boring for aliens to visit?(laughing to myself). Well laughs apart I would definitely like to meet an advanced race who withstood that test of time so that they can teach us how people from different parts of the world here can unite together to form a super civilization that would end obstacles to human race like death, geographical boundary based racism, boundaries marked by language and religion, disease like TB/fungal infections which make people look dark,inactive,dumb etc (more about that later in another blog), bad politics and politicians. The most pressing question which I have been feeling depressed of is why were we made, did they come across their creators, do they know the answer to why people with consciousness (consciousness which questions about their own existence and purpose in this vast universe, why we were made, were we not made to enjoy life, if we are here to experience life and good things about it then why there is disease and ill health like TB and erectile dysfunction,lack of libido in my case and why am I genetically not handsome, why a portion of the people is handsome/beautiful and other’s aren’t)…All these pressing questions I want to ask and find an answer to from their creators or creators of our humanity….

Anti gravity levitation

June 25, 2018

Now mass causes gravitational pull. For example Einstien said that planets like earth curl the space around them, imagine a cloth stretched across and you put a metal ball in it and this would bend the cloth and the same ways matter bends the space around it and causes gravitational pull. If that is the case then can non-matter cause gravitational repulsion. More is the mass more is the gravitational pull and absence of mass can it cause repulsion. The answer could be yes as the universe is expanding and what is causing it to expand is the dark energy or the repulsion caused by anti-matter. So can we make an anti matter producer which makes high density anti matter that would repel mass. Now imagine we fit this in a vehicle and due to this repulsion we would achieve anti-gravity lift. Another aspect is how would we control such a complicated machine. From quite few years we see BCI(brain control interface) devices controlling robotic arms etc but they look for pulses of electrical activity in the brain which form when we imagine motion in brain but that has some disadvantages that it has a training phase and is slower. But can we make BCI devices which can directly image our thought. Right now there is such technology that people have used MRIs and were able to image what the brain is seeing. Now if we compact this MRI technology into a small helmet (today we have apps with BCI head bands that can image our dreams) and see what the brain imagines then a thought of the space craft lifting into the air can be used to navigate a machine like a space craft. Also if we create a space time bubble around the craft then the people in the craft would not experience any G-Force no matter with how much speed it would appear for people outside the space time bubble that the craft is accelerating at great speeds or even making abrupt maneuvers. I guess a space time bubble would also happen if we can make an anti matter reactor. As matter through time gives an impression of time then what about anti matter. Can anti matter make time travel possible?

Anti gravity levitation, travel through a space time bubble and mind controlled space craft

June 24, 2018

More on this tomorrow….

Remote sub conscious Imaging and Dreams as portal to brain

June 24, 2018

I was thinking what if we can develop machines  that can do remote sub conscious imaging. Right now there are devices through which we can image what the brain sees and holds. If you dream we can image that now but why can we say like to this without attaching any device to the brain, cant we remotely observe the images that form in the mind’s eye and use it as a form of probe and cognitive conditioning. If we can image what the brain is thinking and see’s then can use it for medical diagnosis for understanding ailments that are plaguing a diseased body, or say we can know a person’s thoughts and if some thoughts are affecting that person’s state of mind in a bad way we can understand what those are like we can see a movie of whats inside the brain and condition it to make it more pleasant. What if we can not only download thoughts this way but remotely induce dreams and update knowledge i.e educate a person of a topic in science, increase his/her skills, know how about a topic be it art, science (engineering in particular). Can we also use dreams as portals to talk to the thoughts already embedded in the mind. Can we develop satellites which do the above thing and condition an entire population of the planet. Would be one hell of a leap in medicine, psychology, education, psychiatry and many fields. I wonder if there is a place where my job can just be to think and work towards such things. Sometimes original thought may always not be possible like sometimes there has to be an input from somewhere in real life so that we can manifest it, engineer it into something better. To simply put it let me give you one example when humanity looked at birds they though why we cannot fly like them, why not engineer machines which allow us to fly like birds in the air, why not take the aerodynamic shape of birds to engineer bodies of planes and so I am just guessing if someone saw a UFO then that person would have thought about anti-gravitation mechanism, some of them using fuel like planes,  helicopters, rockets and some in the future might use anti matter reactor to just levitate like an alien UFO spacecraft, travel at the speed of light through space time bubbles, having maneuvering capabilities like one cannot even do with existing flying machines like abrupt accelerations, abrupt 90 degree turns etc. One will have to dream it, manifest it or be fortunate enough to capture an alien craft that crash landed on earth, all thoughts would need some form of input from observation in present. Hey some people say hiding the true source might become an original thought. Not always.

Why not have a super society of knowledge that can propel humanity to 200-300 years into the future?

June 24, 2018

I have been thinking for a while instead of just suffering for basic needs like good medical help/diagnosis/health, good food, a comfortable place to live, some money, need of sex there should be a place where I can forgot about all these basic worries and just imagine, engineer and innovate and put my effort into propelling humanity 200,300 years forward? Can we have such a super society. Can we dare to think beyond what the level of current technology is and even movies on science fiction and provide original thought and innovate towards safe guarding and propelling humanity into the future for next 200-300 years or may be more. To start with I think we need to assess our selves in the basic levels of the Maslow’s triangle and meet those basic needs so that our mind is free from the basic needs of life and that we can stop worrying about such basic needs and think and occupy our minds towards the future like interplanetary societies, space travel between galaxies, life without death, anti gravity levitation and propulsion using anti matter reactors and some things which we cant even imagine now. Can we gear up to have a safe future for humanity…?

For reference here is the Maslow’s Hier archy of needs

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